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| ...it's three in the morning and i'm waiting for laundry to finish, so i figured that i would update this... life is good right now... lots of things are changing in my life right now, and they are for the good, and i'm excited to see what God has in store down the road... the Emergencia Tour has been going great so far... we started on wednesday in rolla, mo... then we woke up the next morning and headed to good old highland, il... both shows went great... then due to some cancellations we had 2 days off, but in that time we managed to get a show together in p-ville at the church... it was well attended for being so last minute... The Silent Film are great in every way... awesome guys, great music, and amazing live... it's been great hanging out with them this week... i've also really been enjoying liz (aka ghhrfy) get on stage and do her thing... i'm really glad she's on the road with us... i hope that down the road we can get another tour scheduled with this same line-up... of course by then The Silent Film will probably be signed and making millions of dollars and will be on tour with U2 and Coldplay... but i still hope that there can another Emergencia Tour... that would make me happy... maybe we could make the tour a little longer and branch out a little further into the good ole US of A... so yeah, it's 3am and i'm waiting for laundry to finish... the only reason i'm doing so is because at 9:30am we're off to canton, il for the next date on the tour... then it's on to Ohio... well, i guess i should check this laundry and then get going to bed... life is good... God is good... i love you all...
ian
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| ...today
(well, i guess it's now techinically yesterday) was my 22nd birthday...
as weird as it may sound, i'm starting to "feel old"... i know that
doesn't make sense, but it's just how i feel... there something about
leaving 21 that feels weird... and on top of it i think about how in
just a little over a month i will be graduating from college with a
degree in studio recording & production... and i think about how
even though i love recording music, playing music is so much more
enjoyable for me... but i'm told by professors at this college that
unless my band plays cover songs, i won't have a career as a
musician... which is discouraging in many ways, as well as being a load
of crap in my mind.... and then after college it's time to go into this
"real world" that i apparently haven't been living in for the past 22
years... it's all really scary... oh well, thats just life i guess...
...this birthday was good,
a little odd, but good... i never make any kind of big deal out of my
birthday, so usually people don't know when it is... and then when they
find out they ask why i didn't say anything, and i want to just tell
them that because to me my birthday is just another day, but instead i
just shrug my shoulders and apologize... that happened on a few
occassions this year...
...today we had church and
at the end of the service Mike announced it was my birthday and the
congregation sang to me, it was nice... wes and mallory got me the
greatest card in the world... then after church we went to meet with a
girl from the DuQuoin Call for an interview that will be in this
saturdays paper... then we came back and got some lunch... which brings
me to the highlight of my day...
...i got a phone call from
my older brother joe, whom i haven't really talked to since christmas
break... when i think of that fact i get so pissed and i almost start
to cry... why am i so bad at keeping in contact with people, especially
my own brother... i love my brother deeply and we have always been
close... he called me to tell me happy birthday
and we just talked about
music and concerts and i told him the story of meeting and talking to
Chris Martin in an Urban Outfitters in chicago... he told me about his
new position as a curatorial assistant at the Philadelphia Museum of
Art and how much he enjoys it... i know he wants to be a curator so i
asked him if he ever thought about going back to school to gets his
masters and phd... he told me he thought of it, but with a full time
job and living on his own he isn't sure if he could pull off more
schooling...
...then he told me of his
friend Jim, who has made quite a living off creating ringtones... jim
just got a new position with viacom (he is primarily at MTV, but he
also works with VH1 and Comedy Central) in a department that deals with
ringtones... like when you see an ad on VH1 for ringtones for the "Flavor of Love" show, those were all made by jim... right now he is the only one, but in the near future he
will be hiring a staff... jim went to school for the same thing that i
am, so my brother is going to drop my name to him... who knows if
something would happen with this, but hey, it's worth looking into...
...talking to my brother
was great... even when we both say we need to go, we still always end
up talking longer... we promised each other that we would have to keep
in better contact with each other... i hope i can keep my part of that
deal...
...once i was off the
phone, the guys and i talked about the tour with the silent film and
then headed out to the church to practice Stephanie Smith songs for
agape... 5 hours later we were back at the Ross' to eat more food and
watch Chicken Little,
which to my surprise i actually enjoyed... then i talked to ariane for
a few minutes since we hadn't talked in like 4 days... then we left
pinckneyville and drove back to greenville... and here i am...
...the weirdest thing about
today was that i was so busy that i didn't get to talk to my parents...
and i knew i probably wouldn't... i talked to them yesterday and since
they knew how busy i was going to be they wished me an early happy
birthday in case i couldn't call because today would be so busy... so i
knew it would happen, but for some reason it still seemed odd... i'm
definately going to call them tomorrow...
...i want to thank everyone
who made today special... mom, dad, megan, everyone at willow glen, my
brothers in Solafide and all their families, ariane, darren, mandy
(sorry i didn't call back, today was crazy), everyone who left me a
comment on my facebook, everyone i may be forgetting (it is almost 3am
and my brain is shutting down), and my brother joe...
...i know this turned into
a novel, but i don't write on this a whole lot and i just felt like
writing... if you are still with me thanks... i love you...
...because it meant so much
to me to talk to joe, i want to end this entry with some lyrics from
one of my favorite songs that is so appropriate... from coldplay's
"talk"... i don't know if you'll read this, but thank you Joe, i love
you man...
"Oh brother I can't, I can't get through
I've been trying hard to reach you,
Cause I don't know what to
do
Oh brother I can't believe it's true
I'm so scared about the future
And I wanna talk to you
Oh I wanna talk to you
You can take a picture of something you see
In the future where will I be?
You can climb a ladder up to the sun
Or write a song nobody has sung
Or do something that's never been done
Are you lost or incomplete?
Do you feel like a puzzle,
You can't find your missing piece?
Tell me how do you feel?
Well I feel like they're talking in a language I don't speak
And they're talking it to me
So you take a picture of something you see
In the future where will I be?
You can climb a ladder up to the sun
Or write a song nobody has sung
Or do something that's never been done
Do something that's never been done
So you don't know were you're going, and you wanna talk
And you feel like you're going where you've been before
You tell anyone who'll listen but you feel ignored
Nothing's really making any sense at all
Let's talk, let's talk
Let's talk, let's talk"
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| ...matt good is a hero of mine... he should be a hero of yours as well...
Sometimes I dream I lost my friends
I told them lies that left them all defenseless
Just to get away from their ugly pretenses
And let them know that I am fine alone
Sometimes I throw out my guitar
Or leave it burning and the ashes are scattered
But the muse inside just turns on me in laughter
Seems he never shuts up
Bad dreams, life seems like I’m half-asleep
I find myself on an overpass
Where souls fly by and I am driven to laughter
At the mere thought of life and death and after
And what it means to them
Sometimes I lay down my life
And sacrifices are too great not to offer
Discord screams, but peace is always softer
And that’s the best we can do
Bad dreams, life seems like I’m half-asleep
Give me time and it will work itself out
That’s what I tell myself to drive away the doubt
That things will ever change now
Everybody must have days like these
And nights as lonely as the inside of me
Now I can’t complain
I guess I found that the mistakes we make
Are the things that keep us wide awake
Yet bind us together
I don’t profess to have all the answers
And Lord knows I can’t keep it all together
The way you think I should now
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| "...nobody said it was easy... but no one ever said it would be this hard..."
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| ...because i have an amazing girlfriend, and other people who love me... i'm going to see Coldplay on March 30 at the united center in chicago with brandon, wes, ethan, briana, and mallory... if only ariane could make it :( ... speaking of ariane... it's only 18 days until i get to see that girl and boy am i happy :)... i love movies way too much i think... i have bought 9 in the past 2 days... sheesh... i hope everyone had a great christmas... i love you all...
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